I don’t love being pregnant.

The actual months of being pregnant are really hard for me in so many ways and I have a hard time enjoying them.

HOW I LEARNED TO MANAGE AN EMOTIONAL PREGNANCY BY AJIRI AKI 34THPARALLEL MAGAZINE ISSUE 39

I don’t love being pregnant.  

There you have it. I said that out loud and I know it sounds so bad to those who love having a baby bump, the “pregnancy glow”, and everything that comes during those nine months. And it sounds even worse to women who go through hell and back to become pregnant.

Let me clarify. I love being a mother. I love children. I love babies. I am not scared (any more) of the actual process of giving birth. I am so grateful to be pregnant and give birth.

However the actual months of being pregnant are really hard for me in so many ways and I have a hard time enjoying them.

It was always in our family plan to have two kids, but the moment I found out I was pregnant again, I didn’t suddenly feel happy.

I stared at that pee stick and thought…“Oh wow…ok…I guess this is it. …